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Who knows how long i've loved you?
you know i love you still.
Will i wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to
I will.
-the beatles

it is hot in here

We all grow into the beautiful person
that we're supposed to be
-some earlier,some later

0310209

With loaded gun, choke it, take aim at my self,and pull it.
B A N G !!!!!

is it so hard to do????

All you have to do just say sorry,
and then ill be what you want
Some kind bad ass irritating "i dont care" person
But you even so you still didnt do that

And i keep wondering why the reason you did that
So, what am i gonna do?
Hating you or missing you?

Its kinda weird what im feelin now

Now,, my self like lossed up some problem.. I feel free!!
This is what i wanted, this is who i really am inside
Finally i found myself
Not attached more with some memories
Fighting for a chance with my own risk
I know now, THIS IS WHO I REALLY AM!!!!

And i promised to myself, this gonna be my first and my last regret
Now im rebulding my dream for sure... :D

The list

the cities that i hate
1.Magelang : Because its my home town and her hometown too...
2.Semarang: Its too hot for meand the polution,,pheeeewwwww and dont forget! the mosquito's,they are so f***in big... and of course.... (???)

Thanks to my friend for inspiring me...

It requires more courage to suffer than to die,as long as you still humming her name in your pray,,, you and your love will live forever....

with tired eye,tired mind,and tired soul

tangisi saat ku tak ada disini
putus hasrat
tapi ku (mungkin) belum akan mati
karna malaikatku takkan memanggil namaku lagi
puisi ku palsu penuh kecewa
dengan rasa benci tertekan
lemahku melihat
terasa berat untuk terhubung
perlukah membual ?
sepotong kalimat membuatku tak bernyali
maafkan semua
sakitku sudah cukup menyiksa
semua percikan
semua pesan
semua melampirkan dendam melumatkan cerita
inikah indah inikah sumpah
hirup udara tuk menganggap semua tak pernah ada
hela nafas untuk berpijak
menyalahkan
mengharap
menerima

getting sick is suck!!!!

tepar terkapar tak tertolong....
Idung meler,pala puyeng,badan meriang lengkap sudah penderitaan...

And the truth is...... Chapter II

there's no-one left in the world
that i can hold onto
there is really no-one left at all

there is only you
and if you leave me now
you leave all that we were
undone

there is really no-one left
you are the only one
and still the hardest part for you
to put your trust in me
i love you more than i can say why won't you just believe?

thanks to : Robert Smith and also Homogenic

And the truth is......

In the silences I found you
Beneath the highlight
Come to see you just to know you
Day by day

It`s me on your side
But you can`t see me
And my voice is around you
But you can`t hear me
I`m walk in the silence of you

Life is colorful but you said
Its all plain
Save the reason why I`m still here
Hoping you, missing you

thanks to : The Manager of Homogenic

Hahaha,,,,damn!!!!

"It's really over, you made your stand

You got me crying, as well as you planned

But when my loneliness is through, I'm gonna find another you

You take your sweaters
You take your time
You might have your reasons but you will never have my rhymes
I'm gonna sing my way away from blue
I'm gonna find another you

When I was your lover
No one else would do
If I'm forced to find another, I hope she looks like you
Yeah and she's nicer too

So go on baby
Make your little get away
My pride will keep me company
And you just gave yours all away
Now I'm gonna dress myself for two
Once for me and once for someone new
I'm gonna do somethings you wouldn't let me do
Oh I'm gonna find another you ...."

ps : I wish i could.......
and thanks to : John Mayer

Tanyakeunapa????

Knapa ya??? Saya ga bisa bikin blog yg ceria ato lucu gitu? Biar bisa dijadiin novel,trus dari novel jadi film... Ato bikin blog yang mem-promosikan barang2,biar dapat duit dari produsen,khan lagi nge-trend tuh! Ntar trus dibikin artikel di koran- koran nasional dengan judul " Cara mudah menghasilkan uang dari aktifitas internet anda" Trus ntar diwawancara, foto saya jg masuk koran,euy!!! Ini kok,,bikin postingan bawaannya suraaaaaaaammmmmmmm mlulu...???
Piye tho po' ??!!
Idealis atw realistis???
Terserah... (kata Bung GlennFredly)
asal jgn broncitis atw meningitis aja...

Kok tangan saya gemetar lgi ya??
Njrit!!!!!!!!

FOKUS meraih dam memperbaiki tujuan yang dulu, 2 tahun silam sempat berantakan...
Saya ingin meraih cita2 saya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Je sue amore litua

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merasakan...
melihat...
dan akhirnya,,,
gemetar...
bersiap untuk melihatku hancur,,,
wahai malaikatku...

the last suffer,,,hopefully..

akhirnya,,,tembok pertahanan terakhir saya runtuh juga.... begitu juga helai terakhir dari sayap saya..
Muak akan rasa ini..
Coba untuk tak melihat dan tak mendengar tapi tetap merasakan...
Menghantui disaatku tertawa,dan memaksa tuk menangis..
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tanyalah ke waktu...